That Day

“Every day is a new day for me” is Mantra of my life now.


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Two decades ago, I wasn’t like this rather I lived in past more than in present and carried past along. Gradually the load of past increased and I felt burdened with yesteryear.

The consequence directly showed its impact on my health. I became irritable, held grudges against people who had hurt me in any way and because of these, I burst into anger if someone tried to say anything which I disliked.

Initially with anger, I thought I was becoming powerful but I felt hollow from inside, started feeling weak and health issues cropped up every now and then.

Visited number of doctors, ample tests were done but no medicines helped me. Each one had a new view about my health and in this game, I was on bed for two- three months. Never in my life, I was bedridden so, it was painful for me and I thought it was useless to live such life at a tender age. I was in my early twenties.

I went into retrospection to see where I was failing. When I was bedridden, I discovered another facet of mine of which I was ignorant till that time.

I found myself adjusting to other’s routine, I stopped demanding. Actually in pink of health, I wasn’t demanding from others but I did the things on my own but according to my comfort, but in this mode, I adjusted to extremes and never ever bothered anyone.

I explored a new side of myself and promised to myself not to bother about the past or get discouraged by anyone’s comment rather take it as encouragement & show your skill. Lead a normal life, no need to become Perfectionist.

I realized that in our life, the things that count most is kids, my family, my parents and on top priority is my health. If I will be fine then only I can look after the family or the materialistic things.

World will not stop for me, I need to stop myself.

That was the day when I got enlightenment and discovered my beautiful side of me and vowed to live life on the terms,

Everyday is a new day, hold on to the better things of life and bury the bitterness.

Now, I lead a happy life, laugh over the grudges, do back-counting to drop the anger and seriously it has worked.

I keep smiling in-spite of all odds of life.

Linked to Blogchatter Prompt, That Day & #MondayMusings.

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8 Comments Add yours

  1. umanigith says:

    It’s really a vicious circle to get stuck in…the past that affects our present and spoils our future leaving us no chance of ever having a beautiful past to look back at. I am so happy for you that you were able to get out that cycle and live in the moment. Because that’s all that matters!

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    1. Ila Varma says:

      Thanks for stopping by.

      Like

  2. As much as we love to leave the past behind, I think it almost always affects our present and our future. It’s wonderful that you realised what you needed to do and moved along.

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    1. Ila Varma says:

      Yeah n it changed my outlook drastically. Thanks for ur kind msg

      Like

  3. Neha Jain says:

    Hi Ila,

    This should be the life mantra for every human being. I am happy to know that you have leaned to move on and dared to share this with us.

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  4. Vinitha says:

    Leaving the past behind was difficult for me too. I am not completely over it but sure am trying. Glad to know that you were able to move on and get well. 🙂

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